Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Ok, leave dates are in finally. I've been told I'll have my leave starting the 14th of this month. Not holding my breath for that not to change at some point, but that's what I'm planning for. I'm really sorry I won't get to see everyone, but there's a limited amount of time and my first priority is obviously to my patient, loving wife and sons. Speaking of sons, Lucas James is now a healthy growing boy of what... over a month now. I can't tell you how agonizing it has been to first of all find out he was born more than 24 hours after the fact, and now to know he's growing and getting cuter without having ever seen him. I still feel a very strong connection with him, even having never met him, but I lack the intimacy that will only come with changing his diapers :-). It is certainly WAY harder to know that I'm missing a ton of Isaac's firsts. Steps, words, problem solving, jokes, self knowledge, self will... the list goes on. I mean he started walking 1 measly week after I left for trainup... how's that for bad timing. At least I have the one comfort of knowing that I managed to completely convince Lucas' mom that he was a girl and so when he was born she was understandably shocked to see a boy. I think a lot of wives would have been upset at that, but not mine. Of course I knew she wouldn't be, otherwise I wouldn't have done it. At any rate, now she knows that when she tells me she wants to be surprised she'd better really mean it.
If anyone wants me to get a silk or wool rug, just let me know, they have some really beautiful rugs of all different sizes and I can get really good deals. Or if there's anything else you think I could get over here that you have a hankering for, I'll do my best to find it for you.
I miss all of you in a very bad way, honestly I try to not think of any of you at all because it makes it so much harder for me to remain calm. I'm really not ignoring you guys, I'm just trying to survive this ridiculous deployment without going crazy. It's like I was discussing with a bunch of guys the other day, this is a deployment that it is impossible to be proud of in any way. Oh well, they can't all be winners. The only upside is that no one from my unit has died or been injured from anything enemy related. Honestly, the safety aspect means a lot more to Bonnie than it does to me... but I suppose that is good enough.

3 comments:

  1. Finally new post!! Waiting for you is so hard but in a lot of ways kinda fun because I look forward to every day and pretty much everything within the next two weeks because it means I'm one week closer to seeing you. I was so shocked but in a good way. I was only annoyed during my pregnancy because you did a great job of convincing me that Lucas was a girl, I was annoyed you 'let it slip'. Ha if only I knew you as well as I think I do. Should have seen it coming. I'll see you super soon!!!! Love you.

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  2. So good to read another update!
    I'm excited that you'll be home soon. Hope your visit is everything you are hoping it will be.

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  3. It appears that in my busyness and daily bustle I have missed my dear friend. Alas, circumstances have caused much to be missed. Had I but known that you would be bringing trinkets and trophies home from afar I would have mind melded with you and conveyed my desires for oh so many things; foreign tapestries, intricate woven rugs, authentic middle eastern clothing, desert sand, enemy fire arms, royal robes, fine wines, native made jewelery, but most importantly you. You are my dear friend and brother and even though we hardly ever see each other or even talk since we both have full time lives with room for little else, you are still my best friend. You are greatly missed and I only wish time was not such a thief because it steals away moments we don't get to share.

    Jennifer says hi.

    Your Brother,
    Khalen

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